Recall the lilies and the ponies...

This anxiety

A feeling I will not have energy

To accomplish the tasks

Which I perceive as needful

Let go, let be

Recall the lilies of the field

And the ponies of the mountain

God, I'm sorry 

I was psychotic 

tonight

I breathe in the suffering

of all

in like condition

I breathe out lovingkindness

to all

who suffer

If it be Your will

May I sleep tonight

May I surrender

May I somehow

turn this suffering

into gold

Along RR Grade Road, 2020

Pony and Foal, Grayson Highlands, 2017

Instead...

Instead of rehearsing Her words

think of goodness, of light

of all I have to be thankful for

Such as rain, sun, trees

John, Sarah, Josh

My Parents, Kate

Todd, Michele, Clark, Julie

Dorothy, Larry

April, Susan, Denise, Norm

Jeff, Abby, Herb

Tom2, Katelin, Robyn

Ted, Becky, Loved Ones

The locksmith

who was 

an angel

Don't let one person's judgement

steal my joy

and negate the serendipities in my life

all that goodness 

Yellow Court

Today from my Yellow Court

A smokey cloud emerged

Though it wasn't smoke

It was dark-gray

Pain, decades old

Held by a cord

Then

Golden scissors 

Cut the cord

And the cloud ascended

A deep golden-yellow

Shone upon it

"I don't want to be forgotten

I don't want to be abandoned"

Said the trembling dark-gray cloud

"We aren't abandoning you"

Replied the golden-glow

"We are setting you free"

Light of golden-yellow

Warm like the sun

Gently penetrated

And shone inside the cloud

The light soothed the cloud

For the cloud had been hiding

A long time in darkness

And now the cloud was free!

The darkness turned to light!

Gentle rain fell from the cloud

Drops like tears

Tears of acceptance, of transformation

Purified

The Insiders danced for joy!

Pog and It and I witnessed

We smiled and felt 

YES!