Tuesday, August 31, 2021

Of Paths and Surrender (2006)

Coming across this poem was yet another serendipitous encounter. 
Click here, and scroll down, to read about it. 
Small thing maybe, but then again, not...

[Note: From the archives...2006]

~*~

God looks upon you with favor today
He rejoices you are His child
He tenderly reaches out
And clears a path for you

You observe from a distance and ponder,
Can I trust the path?
What if danger lurks?
What if it isn't what I expect?

All the while God patiently awaits
And you wait...
And you ponder...
And time ticks by

Later you revisit the path
It is barely visible for weeds have overgrown
You turn and walk the other way
Still pondering
And time ticks by

You again revisit the once clear path
Yet now the landscape has changed
There is no path
Where once lay the path
Now, a city

You drop your head
For it is too late
Your heart sinks
With regret and despair

But with God all things are possible

He looks upon you with favor
He rejoices you are His child
He tenderly reaches out
And clears a path for you

You observe from a distance and ponder
You approach for a closer view
Your heart is quickened with a spark of hope
Maybe, just maybe.....
As you take the first step

This time I will trust
Even if there is danger
Even if it isn't what I expect

He looks upon me with favor
He joys over me with singing
He tenderly reaches out
I will grasp His hand
And surrender to Him

In thee O Lord will I put my trust

~*~
penned november, 2006,
thirteen months after i'd left the way

Don't throw out the prophet...

Where will I go next in my journey
Aye, I am already here
In the next
Which is the now

~*~

My mind's eye recalls August 3, 2010
I stand in the darkness of night
In the forest
In a circular space
Where various paths converge
Just north of the Roan Highlands
On the Appalachian Trail
Which had just disappeared 
In the dark, in the hub
I search for the trail blaze 
Upon a tree trunk

(Wow, 8/03/10...
The day after JK's words...
Plunged my heart like a dagger...
And I began to shrink...
Eleven-plus years ago...

I've wondered the last few days
Am I picking up where I dropped off 
 
I am broadening again 
Deepening, growing
Instead of shrinking
Instead of occupying inertia 
Maintaining survival mode
 
But have I not been growing 
All along
Yet I also shrank
And in the shrinking I grew
Life is filled with paradox)

Now in this August of 2021
I again find my self in a hub
With various paths from which to choose
Not in a forest, but in my soul

Carol, don't throw out the prophet
Don't reject based on your projection
But don't abandon the lessons you've lived and learned

Be as aware as capable in any given circumstance 
Especially be aware of your responses
There's more to live, more to learn
Stay open. humble, patient, grateful

Listen. Listen. Listen...
Re-member. Re-member. Re-member.... 
Be. Be. Be....

Take the next step...
And the next...
And the next...
Which will then... 
Become the now...

Is that not 
In some sense
Prophetic 
___________

Right after posting this piece, Don't throw out the prophet, I visited my poetry vault at Poetry Pages. Curious about what I'd written way back when, I clicked on a poem. And...here is what I read: Of Paths and Surrender, written in 2006. 
Oh my.... 
Quite the serendipity after writing my prose above...
I searched Parchment Anthology and couldn't find that old poem. So I posted it here.