Falling together in increments

Symptoms.
Symptoms.
Symptoms.

Doesn't "sym" mean same?
I wonder if "tom" means tome?

The same heavy script.
Over and over.
Again and again.

Some are heavy.
Some are a just a nuisance.
Some are side effects.

Headaches.
Nausea.
Migraines.

Bloating.
Weird tastes.
Tummy spasms.

Brittle, thinning hair.
Wig in the bathtub.
Last appointment, my massage therapist asked, "Did you cut your hair?"

Random purpura on my arms.
Red patches and dots from broken blood vessels.
Beneath my skin.

Eye hemorrhages.
Sometimes I don't know vessels have burst.
Until the person I'm with avoids looking at my eyes.

Tender palms.
Tender soles.
Pain, but only slight.

Back pain.
Leg pain.
Wrist pain.

But not enough for an oxy.

Weakness.
Shortness of breath.
Fatigue.

Brain mud.
Talking self through simple tasks.
Minutia matters.

I'm sure I've left something out.

Like the back spasms a couple months ago.
With burning pain that shot through my groin.
It's gone now.

And muscle atrophy from years of nerve damage.
Toothpick legs.
Shriveled biceps.

Depression.
Anxiety.
Isolation.

Continuous process of balancing.

Do I push now?
Do I rest now?
If I rest, will it be restful?

This too will pass.
There is always a brighter day.
Even my biceps are becoming less shriveled.

I was able to cut my finger nails yesterday.
Without assistance.
Hubby spotted me, just in case.

I have improved
In increments.
Increments matter.

*~*

"Sym" means together.
"Ptom" derives from piptein which means "to fall."

symptom (n.) 1540s, re-Latinized from sinthoma (late 14c.), from Medieval Latin sinthoma "symptom of a disease," altered from Late Latin symptoma, from Greek symptoma "a happening, accident, disease," from stem of sympiptein "to befall, happen; coincide, fall together," from assimilated form of syn- "together" (see syn-) + piptein "to fall," from PIE *pi-pt-, reduplicated form of root *pet- "to rush; to fly" (see petition (n.)).