Why am I
prethinking
so much?
Because of years of living
with my
chronic condition
Its widespread symptoms
including side effects
of long-term steroids
Everything, all of it
inside, outside
north, south, east, west
The long history
of it all
going back decades
To my first 20-year
chronic illness life
and to the current 10+-year
chronic illness life
Decades of a waking
hellish nightmare, but also
of deep gratitude
and mountaintop experiences
So my week
was another
week of struggle
Probably the most joyful moment
was watching two squirrels
on the back deck while I sat
on the screened-in back porch
They chased each other
back and forth
like they were putting on a show
for me
They would stop
and chatter
and start the chase again
Then they scampered
up the Dr. Seuss tree
and continued their play
or romance or whatever it was
The whole show lasted
around 15 minutes
which is a long time
