I am thankful for my husband and children and granddaughter, my few close friends, my trusted medical and wellness team, and Earth's wildlife and non-human creatures who have continually come to my aide through the decades...
~*~
I turn the knob of the tub faucet so water flows...
Water is a big part of the couple exit-life plans I've come up with...
Water will finish the deed so that no breath is left...
I turn the knob with feelings of utter worthlessness, shame, no value...
Of no light at the end of this dark, endless tunnel...
Feeling I am only a burden to my family and beyond...
The pills, over 40 per day...
Just one unrelenting circumstance that I navigate...
But it won't take 40 for this deed...
I turn the knob of the tub faucet so water flows...
And a thought clearly emerges...
If Hawk is here, I'll not do it...
I turn off the knob and the flow ceases...
I walk to the bathroom window...
I peer into our big backyard...
There, regal and faithful...
Hawk, my companion...
I call Hubby...
~*~
The above happened on 12/11/2025...
Today is 12/16/2025...
I am still breathing...
~*~
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