Gestation

I feel pain

I feel my body changing

I'm not sure if it is for the good

What is happening 

to me? 

I wait

I feel stickiness

In my body

Not around my body

Rather, between parts of my body

Like a lubrication

I wait

I feel my self folding

Into a different form

Like someone is

Beside-within me

I feel my self cracking

No, not me 

It is this shadowy casing

My recent dwelling

And I wait

I feel something odd

On my back

A gentle coolness 

Something, 

something big, 

is happening.

And I wait

Oh my!

What is this?!

More gentle cool

Not rushing in

Just more of it 

Surrounding me

I feel  

My self 

Emerging

From my spine 

There is pain

Something is unfolding

As it unfolds

The pain eases

And I wait

Then

Like I already know what to do

For no one has told me

It is innate

I stretch and stretch

Two lightweight structures

Emerge from my back

I feel them broadening

With an almost unconscious effort

Because I know 

This is what I am made for

I begin to undulate these structures

And I am lifted upon the air

And I see 

Not only with my eyes

But with my entire being

I see a wide view

I can float and fly and land

Upon the milkweed

To drink its lifegiving nectar

The new opening gestating in me is 

Freedom

Somehow I will make it through 

All these symptoms

Beyond the poisoning of my system

And I will emerge

Maybe not totally cured in body

But in my soul I will soar

And maybe

Just maybe

My body shall follow....

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3/22/21

Prompt: "The new opening gestating in me is...."

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