To read an introduction and access the Shorts index, click here: Shorts: Introduction
Dedicated to all who suffer in silence...
Which isn't silent at all...
The torment is a far scream from quiet...
You are heard...
You are not alone...
We are not alone...
Tuesday, 4/04/23
Leaving Corps twice
In panic
Maybe this is similar
Flight
Is there anger
Simmering under
My non-rest
What is she shares and twists it
Like I didn't tell her upfront
But I did
Be more quiet before I share
No
That's not it
Choose more wisely
But I don't like the word
Wisely
Felt worse after Thursday
Afraid of insomnia if I do
Afraid of more weakness if I don't
Thursday, 4/06/23
Sunday, 4/09/23
Headlamp shines on page
and I wonder,
When will I write again, draw again?
God I pray...
please watch over A, to bring her joy
to help her feel safe.
And my family too.
John, Sarah, Matt
Josh, Natalie
Yerba, Archie, Ozzy
All
And me too... :)
Wednesday, 4/12/23
How did I start to feel better
this afternoon?
Oh yes, Ignatia the Saint <3
Deer, insects, snakes
squirrels, crows, songbirds
raccoons, chipmunks, possums...
Our backyard family - some
I feel
life flow through me
though it cannot be seen
with the physical eye
So many projects I start
Some are only almost-starts
But so few I finish
And that's okay
The important ones
get done
They are all important
Aren't they
Yes, but some have to wait
Goodnight
Perhaps I will sleep
If not, I will rest
Sunday, 4/16/23
Will I ever journal again?
I can't even write my 17 syllables per day.
That's okay, Carol.
I watched a spider today
Magically float from ceiling to floor
I could not see her silk elevator
Dear God ~ help me accept
Help thou my unbelief
May I have peace.
May I be.
Reading back through my scribbles
I am reminded
"Yes, you are writing."
Why do you not share
your Shorts?
Ahh...approval
It is a yoke of bondage
Saturday, 4/22/23
Ignatia, the saint, helped again
Could it be she will help
even while on acupuncture?
Lift me, my soul
Through the portal
Into spaciousness
Into possibilities
Monday, 4/24/23
Daughter and partner
Son and wife
I hold you tenderly in my heart
May you spread goodness
Embrace beauty
And shower its bounty
Flowers today
Colors galore
Leafy plants too
And trees
It was magic
The Psalmist panted for God.
I understand that longing.
Did he find peace?
Yes, I think he did.
Jesus was a Psalmist.
May peace abound.
Tuesday, 4/25/23
Wednesday, 4/26/23
I yawn widely
Sadly that is not evidence
That I will sleep
Quiviviq, Xanax, herbs
And now
I wait
Thursday, 4/27/23
64 today I am
Too tired to write
Received laser treatment #85 today
Happy Birthday
Saturday, 4/29/23
Carol, write your Shorts
with no audience
in mind
Steroids cause
premature aging.
I am
living proof.
Why is an electrical
outlet
not called an electrical
inlet?
Ahh
That felt good
to write
Sunday, 4/30/23
I began this journal
My writing of Shorts
To not pen them in shorthand
That changed within 3 months
Shorthand takes less effort
For my painful hands
"How are you?" she asked
My answer...
"Miserable to okay
depending on the hour and the day.
Today, I'm okay."
But that conversation was last week
Today felt like 3 days
Going from miserable to not as miserable
The highlight?
Feeling the sunshine
Warm my skin and eyelids
